What no one will remember
(Part xii)
The horizon alights like a dormant lip.
The most important thing of the day
was not seen but felt.
Joy was not in me but around me.
Like a pool of emotion, I drift from
one spill to another. Joy. Boredom. Dread.
I’ve been wandering the whole day. Looking
at things as if they were rocks covered in moss.
The clouds were protagonists .
They are immobile, the city below balloons in ripples.
The line between the lips swallows the light,
the waves and the purpose.
A delicate gulp. Swollen with twilight.
One single nerve aches.
The one whose function
is to sense life.
a stream of cars down the slopes of noon
I and the minutes, parts of clouds
the far-away phone rings November
these business suits still smell of rivers
shadows born from high buildings
all is peace in a busy day.
.
A night becomes clouded as we sometimes say ‘things happen’ abstractly, indifferently that it is suddenly August 2009 a veil of intellectualism is lifted a human face looks up mine, yours, whatever there are clouds, ideas, philosophies up there we look down, you, me, whatever barren reality wooden window frames dusty desks, unsharpened pencils feeble light, organic darkness you see the dark it doesn’t have a name then there is real silence scattered coins uncharged cell phones a sleeping wife that it hits you, me, what you will it is August 13th 2009 what a feeling.
There they were, shattered
sidewalks murderous sidewalks
frozen in their disorder, fractured by black color
and had to reach down
and pain their unfeeling scars
but this is not about sidewalks,
it resembles that primordial awe
or the seven cold nights of tribesmen
it intimates with old necessity
and the heavy mist that kills without moving
because further down by the hollow blackness
of cracked sidewalks and rapid decay
desasosiego, was called once in Spanish
spontaneous hymns of indigent earth
shadowless religions with no clouds on their backs
noiseless disaster tamed by echoed habits
stepping beyond – further into hopeless air
and with it, the truth concealed
hidden encounters with the ultimate Inexplicable
certainly having probed the depths of terror
the animosity of rebellion and the flakes of solitude
in what seems like ages of torment and desasosiego
by the unknown light of trembling – hardened
frozen and broken like irrelevant sidewalks
forgiving the ancient errors of willing blindness
alone, amongst these detached blocks of cold cement
my finger slithered their gaps,
and call me mad, lost and nocturnal – again,
I was nowhere, in calm beauty:
my irrelevant isolation.
Unable to escape this vast dawn
hanging upon me like an atmosphere of chemicals
a mechanical tingling from ages’ past
I’ve collected the motionless quantum of floating seeds
constantly mirroring the pinpoints of valleys
as seen from peaks of departure
I’ve spoken with the dark red shade of tomorrow
perhaps seducing despair to taste my blood
her choice fluttered like a hummingbird’s thought
I’ve fallen in those perimeters of wonder
unfelt timelessness
incapable of resisting the language of rising steam
The old skins of trees invade the territory of sense
while curves vague as clouds
embroil this journey’s end.
A black umbrella
my sky
The moon
another street-lamp
Sleeping houses
populate my horizon
Following the curvature of a continent
the window is my pillow
My eyes
magnets attracting
the elements of the unknown.
If the clouds
scatter and break the sky asunder
into a thousand little islands,
If on top of trees
the world below would not be so strange
I would visit every cumulus bay
every rising branch…
How far must a man go
to find out what he seeks?
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