Here, is the clamor.
Totality crackling.
I gather every seed of noise
as grains of rice
inside my cupped hands.
A nomad hymn has travelled
as a fantastic bird
through an atmosphere of time.
Its reflection is a worn
anatomy of ripples:
moving slowly like a full
moon pulsating on a lake’s surface.
The song and the silence
have become animals
savagely wrestling for
a piece of creation. I’m
watching their pristine
movements from a land
where gods sit next to
man, woman and child;
where we all sit
rapt and perplexed
by the howl of the light
and the course of silence.
This is a land where even the gods
confess not knowing their origin;
much less the nest
from which the primal rhythm took flight.
You now must know what it is to crave a glass of water or to sip a kiss; to be so reckless as to flood the heart because it is a crater of chalk and you’re tired of its empty dusty frame.
I don’t remember what kind of day it was. Full of sun with musky winds, dark with impalpable clouds, perhaps flat and drunk in sapphire.
I don’t care what kind of day it was; a day to forget like all the rest had I not begun to count the breaths I’ve taken in despair.
I began stooping like an imbecile twig that bends with every paddle of the wind as if an essence had broken into milliard tiny mirrors on the sidewalk, and I had to count and sew them back into a remembrance.
I plead for the pallid crust of light that envelopes me like a bulky perfume to melt into a song of shadow or even for a single mindless mote of dust to land catastrophically on me and pierce this ferrous mold, I want to watch my holy skin fall away and leave a naked and unwashed soul standing erect like a pagan odalisque.
But don’t show her mercy, kick her out of this world drama, let her run barefoot back to her incomprehensible origin.
It could have been a year ago, while getting on a bus that I conceived of grabbing silence by its throat and squeezing out a peep; I had been so innocently prone to believing that the world was a gigantic bird suffocating me with its kaleidoscopic feathers but now I feel at home because suffering sets as a sun behind the panorama of knowledge and even if it is reborn every day I dream at night of being a thin echo of fiction.
I see a wall and it is a blink
between two explosions
I contain
the thick blankness of thought
as my only faith;
ergo I cry
and become
shriveled like
the dry pain that
floats like a memory;
I see silence
like a color
like a flame
like a muscle
that bends the stars,
I don’t care
being absorbed
like a wave of frequency,
I must be nothing
glancing at the faint
enormity of life.
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