I try
to surpass existence
I fail
I simply: exist
I feel myself in the world
I am in it
yet I spend most of my time
dreaming
that I am not
I don’t deny that there
is something
my only yearning
is that I cease being
part of it
Beyond Language 
Wow – this is a fantastic poem. Glad I found your site and look forward to reading more! Chloe :)
to depart in order to return to the ‘real’